I couldn't upload this right away because I started crying right afterwards....
Well, here's the first of a series I'm going to try to keep up with. I can never find a way to express how depression feels. So, this is my best attempt here. I'll be covering many different subjects, but I thought Anti-Depressants were a good place to start.
Yes, everything I say in this piece is true. I am on medication, I have gone through 4 different ones and I do skip them sometimes. Like today and yesterday.
I will take requests on what for subject matter. If you have questions or are depressed yourself and would like me to help express how you feel about a certain aspect of life, feel free to comment or even message me privately. No one has to know that it was you, but someone needs to know how you feel.
The character is based off of me and is mine.
The idea and series "Why I Cry" is mine and is not for anyone to tamper with or steal.
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Should I take them if I am prescribed them? Or should I just not? It's too frightening to think of me not being me...
Now, a psychologist cannot prescribe pills, but only recommend you see a psychiatrist who can. On the 1st visit, I can't guarantee how much 1-on-1 time you'll get with your psychologist if your parents have questions, ect. But, I would highly suggest you discuss your apprehensions with the psych. They'll be able to tell you more than me, of course, and may be willing to postpone adding medication into the equation. Not every person who gets outside help takes medication.
As far as my personal opinion, I wish I had waited longer to start on medication and see if maybe just therapy would have helped more. In my own case, I believe I should have waited before getting meds involved. I think you should stick to your guns, at least at first, to see how things go. But, if things don't seem to be getting better after some time, then it might be best to open your mind to the idea of medication.
Deary, I want to commend you for being brave. It's so hard to tell anyone about feelings of depression and even harder to accept help with it. Remember that you're not alone in this now. You have your family and your psychologist. And, feel free to Note me if you have any other concerns or simply need someone to talk to.
And yes, I'll do my best to stay off anti-depressants as long as I can <: ( I just hope things turn out alright for me
I started to cry after reading it.
Because it feals so familiar. So damned familiar.
For special the part... "DID U TAKE YOUR PILLS?"
That are things that happen at home every time.
But its so hard to stay straight with the pills, when the depression let u forget 70% of that, what is said or done or i have to do on day.
I don't feal like that the pills would work. And only thing doctors say is i should take more of them. (It fits so closely to the playing around with them) :/
I hope u can fight ur depression better then me.
And i have a little request, what has to do with one problem i have with people, i have in live. Maybe u could help me saying it to others with ur drawings?
If i think right, there are two topics, but i will tell u the one who makes me more problems:
I think you know that(?). When you push the you love people away from u to be alone, because u think its better for them not to know, whats going on, because causing them to much trouble and bad moods with the own depression? And even if you push them away and be alone...u need then more than before and feels so damnit alone, that it's cracking the heart into pieces. I hope u know what i mean >.<
(Sorry I didn't reply earlier. Life has taken a funny little turn for me.)
And on my side its not only the ones who suffer from depression to, but all people. I don't know, but when i got depressed, i start to hurt people around me. I want they to leave me so that i can not bother them again and again. Its strange...